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Thursday, July 28, 2005
"Looking at a blurred mirror..."
posted by Sasoridai @ 4:56 AM


People say that I'm the carefree, lazy, epimethean, and happy-go-lucky escapist. I guess they don't notice me much being aloof, detached, gloomy, and contemplative. Its amazing what you can find looking at yourself through the eyes of others...

You guys are probably wondering why I'm being a tad dramatic right now, aren't you? I'm not so sure why as well, and maybe its just that recently I've been thinking far too much with what I've been doing to my life. Then the more I think about it, the more I regret living in this current world; the more I regret living in this current world, the more distant I want to be from it.

With every passing day, I feel the innate "Bounded Barrier" [sic] around me growing.

Interesting that the "Bounded Barrier" was taken from TYPE-MOON but I got the idea to call it that because of the honest thoughts a friend gave me. Come to think of it, I think she was the only one who told me what was really on her mind.
What she told me that I had this shield around me that automatically goes up whenever someone actually tries to make a connection with me. A shield that seals me away and severs the forming connection between other people.

... In the end though, I didn't even bother to try to prevent it from "activating" itself anymore.

Now I'm back to how things go for me... Drifting in a sea of thoughts, emotions, and ideas that will never happen because it just is impossible in this world. In the past though, I anchored myself to something whenever I came across one. This time however, I'll drift a bit longer, and see if I can find some more answers before coming ashore once again... Or decide to remain in my Phantasm world forever, behind the Obsidian Moonlight Barrier.

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Tuesday, July 05, 2005
"Back to Tabletop RPGs AT LAST!!!"
posted by Sasoridai @ 9:53 AM


We had a sample battle encounter for our Black Jade: Rewind campaign last Sunday and it pretty much went well. Although obviously we have to coordinate with each other more, like say having to move at the best segments for each of us, as well as utilizing properly the skills we and our Emulator partners have. Also, I did some tweaking with some character skills and decided to take two levels of the Talented: Minor advantage for Tactical skills. Yep, I'm going to be playing the tactical guy in this one. Now if only our GM gives clearance for the two levels of Talented: Minor...

Joe also decided to turn his character's blog into the Squadron Blog for all of us playing the campaign, and possibly the GM who's running it as well.

Yesterday as well I went with Gamer-Joe to meet up with Adrian and Vic of the A.E.G.I.S. (Alliance of Eclectic Gamers and Interactive Storytellers) which is a gaming circle composed of various gamers, some of which may have been possibly around in the RPG scene since the first D&D. They wanted to check out Joe's old house as a venue for the monthly Open Meet, and after some discussions and planning, its been sort of settled already. Now just a few stuff needed like say people who'll help fix the ground floor up. Now its actually easier for me to get to Open Meets since there's now going to be a fixed venue for it.

Also, they told us about the "Houses" in A.E.G.I.S. having their own planned herald/banner/crest/mon/whatever symbol for representation for which "House" they belong in. Joe made asked me to think up of one, then if the concept turns out pretty good, we'll have Adennyd draw it, then possibly we save a bit to actually have one made.

Hmm... But all this speaking of Role-Play Gaming is making me think again about how our type of gamers are in a way dying out... But I'll go rant about it on my next post instead. :p


Dream Theater - Surrounded

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